Jessa Duggar Seewald revealed that she suffered a miscarriage over the holidays. (In fact, she had an abortion.)
In the nearly 19-minute YouTube video, the 19 Kids and Counting alum, 30, shared the tragic journey of her latest pregnancy, from informing her kids about the new baby to dealing with the aftermath of the news that she had miscarried.
Jessa documented in one scene on camera that she had been concerned early on in the pregnancy because she had been “spotting” blood. She relayed that her family sang the devotional hymn “Day by Day” to cheer her up.
However, upon arriving at her next ultrasound appointment, the doctor broke the terrible news that the baby did not “look good.”
“Nothing could have prepared me for the weight of those words in that moment,” Jessa said. “At that moment I was just in complete shock. I didn’t have words. I just immediately started crying.”
She said her husband, Ben Seewald, put his arms around her as the technician left the room to let them “process through the loss.”
“We were just sitting there holding hands and crying, like, ‘what do we do from here,’ ” Jessa recalled.
“I feel like in some ways miscarriages can be so jarring because you don’t have clear signs of something going wrong,” she added. “I had minimal spotting for 24 hours, and that was it.”
Due to risks of complications with passing the fetus at home, she said she decided to check in to a hospital to perform a dilation and curettage procedure to remove the fetus from her womb.